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One Sweet Love

Paint a portrait of my mystery
Only close my eyes and you are here with me
A nameless face to think I see
To sit and watch the waves with me till they're gone
A heart I'd swear I'd recognize is made out of
My own devices....
Could I be wrong?

Savor the sorrow to soften the pain sip on
The southern rain
As I do, I don't look don't touch don't do anything
But hope that there is a you.

--One Sweet Love, Sara Bareilles

Once in a while I stumble upon a song
that speaks exactly what i want to say
every word
paints my picture
more vividly than i could put myself
in words
of my own
those words of the poet
that i want to be

but lack
in some way

because it was a mystery
an imaginary one
maybe

i thought
perhaps too much
perhaps it was just a taste
(yeah i don't like getting to the point)
of something more that perhaps i craved

yeah, and in the end it was
probably just my imagination

and i'll leave it at that.

goodbye

death

a pretty young dental student in nus from selangor committed suicide on Wednesday.

i heard about it during Bible Study last night...

i wonder why she did it...and it suddenly struck me that anyone i know could do that...

and it scares me.

the full article

life is so precious, and bad things shall all pass. life is worth living. she's so pretty, must have been smart...what led her to take her life? it seems like life must have been good to her!

I wonder if she ever thought about what happens after death...

a whole lot of unanswered questions.

touched

oh no...I'm touched!! His name is shan you and he's my boystown student...and i feel so bad! he missed me! three weeks i did not see them because of submissions, and because i kept having to see my tutor until very late...and on the monday before tuesday submission, i just couldn't go! *sigh...

i miss them too!! my two boys!! what a terrible mummy i'll make, if i become an architect!! haha, i really do feel maternal toward my students.

sometimes i wonder what i want in life...

blessings

a post from yesterday to be shared here:

just feel very blessed today

i submitted 3 panels late but they say there will be no letter grade down if we submitted the panels in a3 yesterday which i did…

so blessed

today alot of random people smiled at me (even at trade hub where i pritned my panels) so i must look damn chui but it sure is nice of them to smile at me :) must be a smile of pity…

i really have so much to thank God for…expecially how He has sustained me for the last three hell weeks.

i’m going to miss my little dds corner and the dds mates who kept coming and going while i remained…i rather like this dds computer (strangely last TAW it was also the same computer i worked on…me and this computer have yuan fen.

it never hung on me, not even when i had 2 rhino models, my megapanel (6a1s in one go) in photoshop, autocad with 3 files open and internet explorer all on at the same time…

dear computer, i thank you…and i thank God for bringing me here, and you being the only computer not in use when i entered the dds two saturdays ago wanting to learn rhino…

and He provided a rhino expert behind me who gave me a one hour rhino tutorial and plenty more of his time during the next 10 hell days to submission.

and He didn’t let me have a backache even though i was hunched over the computer 18 hours a day…

and He didn’t let me fall sick…

and i had two cans of coffee but i never drank them and i let elaine have one because she needed some after 2 nights of no sleep.

and msian group are going to have lunch later at megabytes! i missthem…in the submission daze we barely saw each other because i was attached to the dds computer…

and my roomie gaily gave me two chocolate rice bars which gave me a chocolate craving after that which caused me to buy a whole pack of mint chocs from the coop (which was the last box) and that made other people around me happy too because the mint chocs are amazing :)

and…today i got a call from rsp architects saying i got internship from 3rd june to 30th july after my sichuan trip, so i have a job :) i liked rsp architects ever since i found out they designed henderson waves and the music conservatory behind RH…was just telling RenHui I wanted to work for them next time, and now i have an internship with them!

so happy today… :)

a post from today to be shared here:

God is so good, so good…I never knew how good He has been to me recently until i was in dds today and two people were telling me that their rhino model wouldn’t section cut and they couldn’t get renders and the computer hung…

and nothing happened to me…i got all my section cuts, i got all my renders…nothing really bad happened…and i finished on time…oh God is so good to me!! I barely realized it while submission was happening…oh He blessed me so much!!

I’m so glad and blessed that molulu was praying for me throughout!! intercessory prayer…is so powerful! THANKS SO MUCH MOLULU!! I’m so blessed to have a friend who prays for me…I must learn to pray for people also, as a constant thing, and to think about who to pray for every night! I never thought so much about people to pray for before…I just randomly include people i recently met or people i suddenly think of or people i’m constantly thinking of…and sometimes i don’t even pray for anyone!

but prayer is so important! I must learn to get into the habit of praying…praying is having a conversation with God! Like friendships, we have to always seek God and speak to Him and get to know Him better! And then our relationships will improve!

I have so much to learn! And I am so glad there is so much to learn…it’s so exciting! God is so good to me!!

I just saw my resolutions written on the sidebar, and so far...lets see what I've done:

1) Proverbs [erm, fail...i haven't really memorized proverbs! D: nvrmind got half a year more]
2) Laser Machine [YAH!! I USED THE LASER MACHINE!! FACED IT!! now it's not evil anymore, and i'm becoming quite expert!]
3) Use up material [eeehh, fail lah...i keep buying new material!]
4) Better dressed [maybe? hehe]
5) Budget [oh DIE FAIL!!! I just spent a fortune on printing!]
6) Save [eh FAIL]
7) Time management+Procrastination [erm, i think eating, sleeping and working was my life for the last 3 weeks, so i guess time management wasn't quite a problem because there was no time for other things...]
8) Facebook less [WIN!! I really facebook less lor...i went off facebook when i was dds-ing, so i really facebook like 85% less than last time]
9) Library [win for the beginning of semester, but my stomach (which kept growling in the library, which is bad) kept me borrowing books...which is not good i keep paying fines for late returns...which is terrible...ahhh...]

ok...i'm actually not bad. now that i've mastered laser machine, i'll replace it with exercise. I MUST EXERCISE!! I AM SO UNFIT!! erm, the facebook one i need to keep up...and ermmm...hmm..i better manage my money better from now on too!!