A Little Bit of Kindness

This is going to be a very raw and raving post that you don't have to read, really. But I would like it if you did, because it is important to me. And maybe, maybe you will understand?

I haven't been living my life right. You know, sometimes you think you are living your life right, and things seem to be going fine, but actually it's not? That is how I feel my life has been for a long time.

One thing I have realized recently is that acceptance is something that everyone really craves. I have seen so many instances of people not being accepted for who they are, and I think that it is something really horrible. I have been un-accepting of people too, badly so, and I am very, very ashamed of myself.

I am watching Evan Almighty now!! Haha!! I remember watching Bruce Almighty with Rachel Foong the night before we went off for a writer's camp. Rachel is a very nice girl who talked with me a lot when I was a quiet, lonely little girl seated at the corner of church during Youth Service...and she encouraged my writing because she saw I enjoyed reading!! A little bit of kindness goes a long way. And I am afraid I haven't been good at doing little bits of kindnesses!!! A little bit of kindness always brings more kindness, and more and more...and shyness is never an excuse not to be kind.

There are so many ways to be kind!! There are so many people who are not accepted for some small thing they have done, or some queerness that are unique to them...or for a fault they are unable to overcome on their own. And so people talk about them, and laugh at them, and don't talk to them because they are perceived as uncool, or weird...and maybe they are.

I am feeling so ashamed of myself now. There are some people whom I have not been kind to because of perceived ideas about them, or maybe I feel that they are irritating people, or they trouble me...and this is so wrong. SO WRONG. I don't know. Some of these people really get on my nerves, and after a whole lot of kindness they still continue doing what should not be done. Perhaps they have mental problems...these kind of people are very often marginalized by society. And bullied. And yet they desire God so much. I feel ashamed for what I have done. I tried to be kind. But why was I doing it?

The motivation is important. Why are you doing it? To be perceived as kind? To have people admire you? I think it was for people's admiration that I did what I did. And there was no love involved.

But there are kindnesses you can do that will receive no praise. Perhaps you will be marginalized like some others are marginalized. Gone is the acceptance you crave.

Kindnesses like standing up for a person who is being made fun of...kindnesses like talking to a person who's weird and making them feel accepted. And then you find these people aren't really that bad after all. There are some exceptions, I admit, though. I don't know how to handle those. T.T

I have been so wrong. So filled with awfulness. I am so wrapped up in myself and my own worries. I have not been walking with my God. I may have thought I was walking with Him, but I most certainly wasn't!!

There is also something else I haven't been doing, and that is forgiving.

Oh you know, you know, mummy was saying that on the day of judgment you will judge yourself? (I miss mummy) By your conduct on earth...if you forgive people on earth, you will be forgiven also, if you were kind to people, it would be as if you were doing it Jesus.

Pride is another of my vices. I am so proud, oh so proud. I am afraid to hurt myself, so I hurt others. And I do it without thinking.

So many things, so many problems with me.

Then the Bible tells us to go the extra mile. To do more than what is expected of you. To think of others, to do things without expecting anything in return.

I've gotta make a turn-about-face!!

Now for action!! ACTION!! WAhahaha!! If you don't see any difference in me please whack me.

Oh, and another thing. I pray that I will be able to do good to people who do bad to me!!

Jealousy

I'm JEALOUS!! @@

Depressed

For some unusual reason I woke up feeling kind of depressed today. I still feel kind of depressed. Sigh. It's rather depressing. The day was depressing too.

Sigh.

Feeling emo too. Feelings are such irritating things aren't they?

Well, it was quite an uneventful day. For one things I was the only cladder around. Chao Qun (Cladding head) went shopping for materials and things. Cycelia went out for her preceptorship, I think. Clara had piano lessons. Ee Hiang is in the UK. Sigh.

I did a lot of boring things. The usual brainless folding, cutting arghy things. Sigh. I am feeling particularly depressed now. Sigh. Sigh. Sigh.

We went for lunch at yih again (depressing...)

Then the afternoon was spent doing the same thing I was doing in the morning (depressing, depressing...)

Then we went for dinner at Megabytes (we are all sick of yih and bubble tea)...and had to take bus 95 because for some unusual reason no C bus or A bus appeared. We decided to take 95 after three 96 buses, two 95 buses and two B buses passed by (depressing, depressing, depressing...)

Dinner at Megabytes cost me sgd3.90 and that doesn't include sgd0.90 for bus fare.
(depressing^4)

At least lunch was sgd2.00 (this is rm4.80 for ZAP FAN!!! O.o!!!!)

Then we decided to walk back after dinner from Science cos we didn't want to wait too long for a bus (like before) and then as we passed Cheers a cheerful C bus passed us by...

The only uplifting thing that happened today was celebrating Shereen's and Linda Tan Cute Cute's birthday at night. HAPPY BIRTHDAY BOTH!!! :D Shereen's birthday was yesterday, and Linda's is this Friday. Shereen was so touched she cried...Haha, it's good she cried out of happiness and not fear...cos the RHOC-ers came to celebrate too, and when Kevin and Caleb rushed out I got rather a shock...hee...Then I got to chat a bit with Sila and she seemed to have had an equally depressing day...Hehe, nice talking to her again!!

Then we resumed our meeting and after that did boring depressing things again.

Haih. I feel so depressed.

Goodnight.

Like to share this song. It was the Lifegame theme song. Not bad, for my mood...haha...

"If we discover a desire within us that nothing in this world can satisfy, we should begin to wonder if perhaps we were created for another world."

--C.S. Lewis

Meant To Live (Switchfoot)


Fumbling his confidence
And wondering why the world has passed him by
Hoping that he's bent for more than arguments
And failed attempts to fly, fly

We were meant to live for so much more
Have we lost ourselves?
Somewhere we live inside
Somewhere we live inside
We were meant to live for so much more
Have we lost ourselves?
Somewhere we live inside

Dreaming about Providence
And whether mice or men have second tries
Maybe we've been livin with our eyes half open
Maybe we're bent and broken, broken

We were meant to live for so much more
Have we lost ourselves?
Somewhere we live inside
Somewhere we live inside
We were meant to live for so much more
Have we lost ourselves?
Somewhere we live inside

We want more than this world's got to offer
We want more than this world's got to offer
We want more than the wars of our fathers
And everything inside screams for second life yeah

We were meant to live for so much more
Have we lost ourselves?
We were meant to live for so much more
Have we lost ourselves?
We were meant to live for so much more
Have we lost ourselves?
We were meant to live
We were meant to live

We Were Meant To Live For So Much More

This is a very messy post, from a very messy mind. It may be all wrong, I can't say it's right. I may be completely off the mark. I have to constantly ask myself, what I am doing things for...to make sure my priorities are right. Wish I could walk my talk.

I came across this song when playing around on Youtube today. It was the theme song of Lifegame, a camp where I went to hell and back haha!! Not a Christian song, but there's something to it. Lifegame was a big wake up call for me. It shocked me into seriously thinking of what life is really about, about chasing status, earning more money, living a more comfortable life. And blindly following authority, not living by the Bible. Not reading the Bible and being prepared for Christ's second coming. Not using it as a guide. And there is fear. Fear of sharing this. Fear of men. Desiring the acceptance of men rather than God. As a Christian there is always persecution, and no persecution will lead to complacency. Right now I think I have returned to complacency...

In CS Lewis' book Out of The Silent Planet Ransom's one sin was fear, fear and complacency, not acting when told, desiring to do what he himself thought was right even when clearly it is wrong, the death of his friend was the consequence of disobedience. In George MacDonald's book Lilith there was some very scary parts too, of the consequences of doing things your way. A lot of times we look at God as a loving God, and yes He is. But He hates sin, and sin always has consequences. David was forgiven, but after his great sin of adultery, he went through a great deal of suffering later. And he had to bear the consequences, the death of his son.

This song was inspired by a poem written by TS Elliot, The Hollow Men. Quite chim. Haha. Oh, mummy told me to read the Heart of Darkness (Joseph Conrad) before, but I never got around to it. This book inspired this poem, apparently. The summary reminds me of the book Lord of the Flies. Kind of. Oh well. Those are really scary books. Humans are really powerful, somehow. So much evil can come out of them. It's a wrong sort of power. Anyway...here's a quote from one of my favorite authors:

"If we discover a desire within us that nothing in this world can satisfy, we should begin to wonder if perhaps we were created for another world."

--C.S. Lewis

Psalm 82:6
I say, 'You are gods and children of the Most High. But in death you are mere men. You will fall as any prince, for all must die.'"

John 10:34
Jesus replied, "It is written in your own law that God said to certain leaders of the people, 'I say you are gods!' And you know the scripture cannot be altered. So if those people, who received God's message, were called 'gods', why do you call it blasphemy when the Holy One who was sent into the world by the father says, 'I am the Son of God'?

The world isn't everything. There's something so great out there that I may never understand now and never know about. But it will be good!! Because God is good.

Meant To Live (Switchfoot) Youtube

Fumbling his confidence
And wondering why the world has passed him by
Hoping that he's bent for more than arguments
And failed attempts to fly, fly

We were meant to live for so much more
Have we lost ourselves?
Somewhere we live inside
Somewhere we live inside
We were meant to live for so much more
Have we lost ourselves?
Somewhere we live inside

Dreaming about Providence
And whether mice or men have second tries
Maybe we've been livin with our eyes half open
Maybe we're bent and broken, broken

We were meant to live for so much more
Have we lost ourselves?
Somewhere we live inside
Somewhere we live inside
We were meant to live for so much more
Have we lost ourselves?
Somewhere we live inside

We want more than this world's got to offer
We want more than this world's got to offer
We want more than the wars of our fathers
And everything inside screams for second life yeah

We were meant to live for so much more
Have we lost ourselves?
We were meant to live for so much more
Have we lost ourselves?
We were meant to live for so much more
Have we lost ourselves?
We were meant to live
We were meant to live

Asian Civilisations Museum

Went to the Asian Civilizations Museum with Gail, Lin Yan and Swee Yee yesterday!! It was fun, and besides transport costs, it was free!! We saved SGD5.00!! Woohoo!! NUS students get free admission to museums, so we might as well start becoming more 'cultured' people, as Lin Yan put it, and at the same time have a fun day out without spending too much money.

I rather liked it. Museums aren't that musty places, really. And it was fun learning so much about different cultures!! There is a lot in common between them, and a lot of differences too!! Now I think I will, as usual let the pics do the talking!! Haha!!


Three Leng Luis
From left: Gail, Lin Yan and Swee Yee


Gail, Lin Yan and monkey.


Cavenagh Bridge from afar...


The notice says that the use of this bridge is prohibited to any vehicle of which the laden weight exceeds 3CWT and to all cattle and horses. :D


The Asian Civilizations Museum


A totem pole like thing outside which Lin Yan and Swee Yee spent a long time under while Gail and I sat comfortably inside the air conditioned comfort of the museum waiting for them. Hee...


A very interesting circular staircase. Lin Yan and I were busy tapping the staircase to find out where the light came from and then someone pointed out there were CCTV's around. Oops.


The shadows are interesting, no? They look so real. The one in the middle, if I remember correctly, is Buddha teaching his first five disciples. The one on the side is of Buddha. Hm. The one on the left is some sort of cart, I think. They are carved in bronze. I think this part was on Thailand.


These little weapons and tools and the sheet of gold and all the little knobs of precious stones and metal are about the size of a ten cent coin. Apparently these objects are buried with the statue of a person (I can't recall who, or perhaps the statue was supposed to be a messenger or something) so that the statue will have these things when it goes somewhere...(Sorry, a little vague. Museums kind of give me information overload. Haha.)


Thailand 2005, Baby Carrier (I think)
Haha!! Notice the Doraemon motifs!! Used by hill tribe people, if I recall right.


I think this was Indonesian O.o The clothes nearby looked Malay...The part on Indonesia was kind of scary. There was a whole portion on magic books and carvings that the witch doctors used...quite scary.


Vaguely recall the word 'dao' underneath. These are porcelain figures of Chinese gods, I figure...very intricate craftsmanship. The Chinese part was quite scary too...there were huge black faced figurines with ugly expressions and tongues sticking out. Ikes.


Scary, right?
Copyright Gail's blog.


I liked this: 孝 Filial Piety

Says

While parents are alive,
One must not travel afar,
If one must, one's whereabouts
should always be made known.
Analects, Book II, Li Ren 19

父母在
不远游
游必有方。

《论语》 卷二里仁篇第十九

The Chinese one is so succinct!! I like this portion of Chinese culture.


Po wannabe (What's that in your mouth Lin Yan?) (wannabe cos isn't fat enough, haha) and Master Shi Fu. We found the clothes in a trunk. This may be illegal.


Remember Wayang Kulit? This is the Chinese version. 皮影


Indian version. I told you there were similarities!! LOL!!

I think Indian art is very intricate and detailed. They like bright (sometimes garish) colors, and truly their carvings are super mind boggling. The detail!! Yeargh!! Indian clothing is also very detailed. They have a lot of jewelry.

Chinese art is simpler, with a lot of dragons. They like to write a lot. Their clothing is very simple. You cut two large pieces of cloth into T-shapes, and stick it together. The higher up the social ladder you are, the bigger your sleeves can be.

Muslim art uses geometrical shapes alot. Oh!! You should see the art of ebru. It's fascinating. And they like patterns.


Lin Yan and I decided to try out this slow hydraulic lift. :D We both weren't quite sure what it meant. Are there fast hydraulic lifts? We figured that hydraulics meant there was water involved somewhere. Intriguing enough. We timed it. 55 seconds. Not bad.


Inside the slow hydraulic lift.


We wandered off trying to get out of the building and found another gallery we had not visited yet. No, this is not a map of the museum. I don't know what it is.


Lin Yan: So the prawn can eat diagonally, right?
Tirza: Prawn?
Lin Yan: Let's go and eat. I'm hungry.
Copyright, Gail's blog.


Trying to play Parcheesi. I think. Haha. I have no idea what Parcheesi is, but it sounds tasty. I recall hearing donkey say it in Shrek...haha, I like Shrek.
Copyright, Gail's blog.

We had dinner at Clementi!! Bubble tea was discounted at SGD1.00 (SGD0.50 off) so we had it!! We later splashed SGD5.00 on a top each. Hee. Then Lin Yan and Swee Yee went shopping in the air conditioned comfort of NTUC while Gail and I sat outside waiting for them.

WARNING SPOILERS AHEAD TO THOSE WHO HAVEN'T WATCHED KUNG FU PANDA DO NOT READ

Came back and took a bath!! Then we watched Kung Fu Panda in Swee Yee's room!! It was really funny, but I didn't really understand the Wushu Finger Hold (do you know what happens if I flex my pinky?) and how Po managed to figure it out in the end. And what really happened when the pinky was flexed. Haha!! But it sure was one of the funniest shows I've ever watched in ages, and the jokes are so lame and yet so funny....And Po really reminds me of Simon!! Hahaha

I rather liked the quote by Master Wu Gui: Yesterday is history, tomorrow is a mystery, today is a gift, that is why it's called...the present...haha, it is kind of...kind of cheesy, but it's nice!! (like cheese!!)

And I liked Po's babbling Goose of a father!! I wish his character was expanded more. He's seems so...pathetic and crazy and silly, but there is so much more to him!! In fact, I kind of figure he's one of the wisest characters in the story!! He's a bit like Yoda at first hehe, funny way of speech, and then later...hm...if there's a sequel I'd like to see his character expanded...I think I just said something similar...Yep, my fav character in Kung Fu Panda is officially a babbling goose!! ~Weee!! I always was weird. Hee...And despite Po being so bad to his dad, his dad just continued loving him unconditionally!! Well, I think that was my impression, anyway. He's kind of a hero too. A quixotic kind, maybe...no, not really. Never mind.

This morning I went to first service cos I had SS later (Pastor Lily asked me if I was in SS in SG and yes, yes, I am!! Hahaa...) Well, kids in CEFC and kids in GLCC aren't much different, really (all rockets in kid's clothing) but there are a few children with slight disabilities in my Nursery group here in GLCC as opposed to none in CEFC except for one...so it's kind of a challenge handling them (especially Mattheus, who seems to be the only kid I run around after in SS) He's a sweet kid, though. Kennen is another one. The rest are fairly well behaved (I like a little kid called Jin Jiang. He's adorable. Likes to dance. And act cool.) Darren is a really handsome kid, and likes to go in front to perform!! Daniel is very artistic. The girls are a bit quiet, Jaine, Rachel, Ruth (been missing for a while), Christabelle. But they are very obedient. Jaine is a ballet dancer!! Haha...Ben is really quiet too, but his elder brother is loud!! Hehee...there's a kid called Josiah who is currently sporting a pirate's eye-patch (seriously, I got punched :P) cos of his lazy eye who's quite funny too!! Oh well, will miss them all for the next four weeks. Oh!! Time to promote. Anyone interested to join a kind of combined Children's Church on the fifth week of the month (comes every three months or so) to just help out and play with the kids? No teaching involved! No experience needed!! Just tell me o!!

Well, I've been reading past entries of Andrea's blog (I think her posts are very mature) and I came across this line: First you choose your master, then you choose your mission, then you choose your mate. Hm. This was a revelation!! Haha...I most certainly know who my master is, but now I'm kind of vague as to what my mission is. This is a bit worrying. I really have no idea. What has God called me to do to be? An architect? How do I serve Him as one? Am I really going to be an architect?

Well, Ephesians 2:10 says this:
10For we are God's workmanship, created in Christ Jesus to do good works, which God prepared in advance for us to do.

So there are works God has prepared us in advance to do. I wonder what mine is. Will keep it in prayer, and right now, do my best in the little things I know I have to do!! I hope I can walk my talk, cos most of the time I don't. And it's so hypocritical. Yeargh. I really want to walk my talk.

Psalm, Psalm, PSALMS!!! (19) Create In Me a Clean Heart and Other Random Things

The psalms are so beautiful!! I am reading them now. I suddenly felt like reading them because I was reading the gospels, and every so often there would be a quotation from psalms, and how what David wrote was fulfilled in the future!! David was a man after God's own heart, and all the songs of praise he wrote were inspired by the Holy Spirit!! (The Holy Spirit was active in OT times too o!! Suddenly occurred to me...hee...)

Ok, enough blogging. There are a lot of chapters in Psalms, haha...

Spirit controlled life!! Seeing life in a Kingdom inspired view!!
Psalm 51:10-12

10 Create in me a clean heart, O God.
Renew a loyal spirit within me.
11 Do not banish me from your presence,
and don’t take your Holy Spirit from me.
12 Restore to me the joy of your salvation,
and make me willing to obey you.



Create In Me a Clean Heart
Keith Green

Create in me a clean heart, Oh God, And renew a Right Spirit within me.
Create in me a clean heart, Oh God, And renew a Right Spirit within me.
Cast me not away, from thy presence, Oh Lord
And take not your Holy Spirit from me
Restore unto me the joy of my salvation
And renew a Right Spirit within me

Today Pastor Jason spoke about revival. And he quoted a very favorite verse of mine,

2nd Chronicles 7:14
14 if my people, who are called by my name, will humble themselves and pray and seek my face and turn from their wicked ways, then will I hear from heaven and will forgive their sin and will heal their land.

It kind of shows us what sort of God we have, doesn't it? He forgives, and forgives, and forgives...Mummy said once that on the day of judgment we will probably find ourselves judging ourselves...If we forgave in life we would be forgiven too...And all the things we do will be as if we were doing it to Jesus...Oh, that was random haha!!

Revival...nice topic...feel kinda hungry now though, and not sure what to eat. Ok, I go feed myself now...till next time :D

Hmm, this is the last paragraph in the book The Last Battle (The last book in the Narnia series):

And as He spoke He no longer looked to them like a lion; but the things that began to happen after that were so great and beautiful that I cannot write them. And for us this is the end of all the stories, and we can most truly say that they all lived happily ever after. But for them it was only the beginning of the real story. All their life in this world and all their adventures in Narnia had only been the cover and the title page: now at last they were beginning Chapter One of the Great Story which no one on earth has read: which goes on forever: in which every chapter is better than the one before.

Nice way to describe heaven? Haha!!

Ahhh!! I'm addicted to this!!! Schni Schna Schnappi!!



Ich bin Schnappi das kleine Krokodil,
komm aus Ägypten das liegt direkt am Nil;
zuerst lag ich in einem Ei,
dann schni schna schnappte ich mich frei.

schni schna schnappi schnappi schnappi schnapp
schni schna schnappi schnappi schnappi schnapp

Ich bin Schnappi das kleine Krokodil,
hab scharfe Zδhne und davon ganz sch Än viel
ich schnapp mir was ich schnappen kann
ja schnapp zu weil ich das so gut kann.

Ich bin Schnappi das kleine Krokodil,
ich schnappe gern das ist mein Lieblingsspiel
ich schleich mich an die Mama ran
und zeig ihr wie ich schnappen kann!

ich bin Schnappi das kleine Krokodil
und vom Schnappen da krieg ich nicht zuviel,
ich beiss den Papi kurz ins Bein
und dann dann schlafe ich einfach ein

(I am Schnappi, The Small Crocodile…

I am Schnappi, the small crocodile
I come from Egypt, located on the Nile
First in an egg I lay,
Till snip, snap, I snapped away.

I am Schnappi, the small crocodile
Sharp, pointy teeth, I have a great big pile
I can snap, and I’ll snap you,
I snap so well, I’ll snap more too!)

SOOOOOoooooOOoooo ADORABLE!!!! AHHHH!!! Not sure whether to thank Stacey for showing it to me or not, lols!! :D I've watched it at least 10 times heh...But soooo cute!!! Thanks Stacey!! Haha!!

Schni Schna Schnappi (yeap)!!! Schni Schna Schnappi Schnappi Schnapp (yeap)!! (Oo yeap!!)

Happpy!!!! :D :D

I AM SO HAPPY TODAY (Oh, yesterday O.o)!!! ~WEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEE!!!

Woke up this morning at 8 something even though I slept late doing something top-secret :D for the family business hahaa (There is a family business??? O.o) cos I had a breakfast date with a friend I hadn't seen in at least one and a half years!!!

Then mummy sidetracked me with more family business hahahaa so I had BRUNCH with Kavi at Old Town White Coffee (For Kavi and I, this is an OLD hangout haha)...Kavi is my old Form Six classmate who used to come back with me after school ALOT cos she lives like a block away from where I live (So we're PRACTICALLY neighbors!!).

And then now we meet again!! She's doing Chemistry at UKM, and doing really well!! After eating at Old Town and doing a lot of catching up (hee, about everything, from school, food, friends, boyfriends (she's got a nice one now haha!! He sounds nice, anyway!!), to the old politics!!) And then we went back and decided to go to Midvalley later!! (another old hangout!!) (This is the convenience of living so near each other heehe)

And the pics o!!! We met Kavi's friend Mala there!! :D


The Global Indian Shopping Festival was being held at Midvalley, so we decided to visit it!!
That's a kolam at the back!! Kavi and I got to know each other better in a kolam making competition during Form 6!! It was a fun experience!! Haha!!


We're helping to carry the statue's plant hee!!


Kavi and Mala!!


Kavi and me at the Asthana Arts Booth where Mala works!!


The dancers doing a really energetic dance!! It was really funny lol, I was trying to take a pic of this, and then a short little guard came over, really a cute, plump little man hee, with a mustache to boot!! And I thought he was saying I couldn't take pics!! And turns out he was saying please, please, go up front and take pics with the professional people up there!! So I went up, hee, but was a little afraid of going up close, so I took a pic of the professional photographers along with the dancers!! LOL!! When I wandered back, the guard told me to go closer, CLOSER to take many nice nice pics!! And he was waving his hands about and he hit the plant the statue was carrying!! And it all came tumbling down o!! Hee!! He really was a cute guard!! Seemed he earlier went and posed with Mala to take a pic too!! LOL!!! A bit like something out of a comedic Hindi movie, no?


Mala and Kavi, showing off the world's tastiest apple...


Me going to take a bite of it, and Kavi smiling cos she ate her part already haha!!


How the Old Town White Coffee Girls ended up in Pizza Hut


Hehe!! Friends Forever? Cheesy, yes, but maybe, yes???


Mala!! She's super photogenic!!


Ahhh!! Are you hungry now? See the cheeese on my pizza!!!


Later we went to the Asthana Art's ad hoc dance studio where we met Mala's friend Din who is a professional dancer and teacher!! Here we are posing o!! LOL, I can't dance hee, I totally cannot...But I can pose!! Din taught us some cool dance moves for contemporary dance where I was so lost I stood there with my mouth open!! Hee!!


Hahaa, Din's the guy on my right!! I look super yucks!!


The guy in black is Mr Ravi Shanker, Astro guy...Woah!! Mala's doing the split!!


CUT!! CHANGE POSE!! CLICK!! What's the difference?


Me doing illegal things in the car...


Now, this is scary....


Now I'm back to concentrating on the road...Kids, don't try this at home, or in the car...oh wait, you can't drive anyway...Oh yes, we were moving all the while these pics were taken...my foot was on the accelerator...OH!!! See the doggie?? Hui Yin gave it to me for my birthday!! Haha!!!


Look at the jam...Kavi took this outside the toll plaza on the way back from Midvalley...there was a petrol station nearby...heee...


This was outside a petrol station near my house some time later...I was driving mummy's pajero in hopes of getting some petrol into it cos the old thing is one big oil guzzler that my mom loves and refuses to replace even with a new car dangling at the tip of her nose...


Hee, this is what happens when the government suddenly announces that tomorrow, petrol prices hike up 40 percent from RM1.92 a litre to RM2.70 a litre...In Aug, we will be paying abouts RM4.00 a litre.

What with the bans on foreign cars pumping petrol at our stations so that 'only those who deserve the subsidies will get them' and 'we do not want foreigners to benefit from our subsidy (Shahrir)'.

If only we knew where the money 'saved' actually goes, hm. Or maybe we just wonder WHOSE pockets they go into? Heh?

Lookie.

Put Malaysia RM2.70/litre at the bottom...O.o

Hmm, talking with Kavi makes me super politically conscious heee...LOLS, I am not usually up to date on this o, just that Kavi's bf kept sending her updates on this issue in the car, so that's what we talked about!! Woah!! Now I know something about what is going on around me!! Improvement o!!

But honestly, Badawi is kind of NUTS...

Let us learn how to ride bicycles again!! ~weeeeee!!!!! Cycles blandly into a bush...

(18) There Is A Longing

Deeper In Love
Baloche, Cueller, Hoffman, Kerr

There is a longing only You can fill
A raging tempest only You can still
My soul is thirsty Lord
To know You as I'm known
Drink from the river
That flows before Your throne

Take me deeper
Deeper in love with YouJesus hold me close in Your embrace
Take me deeper
Deeper than I've ever been before
I just want to love You more and more
How I long to be deeper in love

Sunrise to sunrise
I will seek Your face
Drawn by the Spirit
To the promise of Your grace
My heart has found in You
A hope that will abide
Here in Your presence
Forever satisfied

How I long to be deeper in love

There is a longing, only God can fill. A raging tempest, only God can still. My soul is thirsty Lord, to know You as I'm known...Drink from the river, that flows before God's throne...

Sunrise to sunrise, I will seek God's face, Drawn by the Spirit, to the promise of God's grace. My heart has found in God, a hope that will abide, here in God's presence, forever satisfied.

I love this song...it's kind of old, but it sets a very correct tone for me...It's a song that tells me that only in God can I find satisfaction, and everything else is empty unless God is there...Only God can complete things.

I guess sometimes I seek the wrong thing, and realize in the end after much hurt and pain...that if you seek God, all the rest will be given unto you. Like in Matthew 6:33:

But seek first His kingdom and His righteousness, and all these things will be given to you as well.

Must, must remember!!! So let me not worry about the things of this world, but place my trust in God, and remember that only He knows what is best for me.