This is How I Overcome

You have helped me overcome problems and difficulties before. And You will again. I will put my hope and trust in You and You alone, my Savior and my God.

When sometimes it is difficult to trust and have faith in You. It is through the practice of it that we learn how to do it. To learn to obey You we have to obey You. Sounds so easy right? Yet I always forget. I pray to obey You but prayer is my action not lip service.

I have made mistakes in life. And perhaps the consequences are reaching me now. But everything is in Your plan. You know why I'm going through this. Nothing is hopeless. Everything shall pass.

The decision to pick myself up where I have fallen is better made today than any other day. While I know I am often inadequate, I will never ever be known as irresponsible or one who does not put in effort.

That is my aim for now. If I never succeed due to whatever reason, it is not for me to wonder. It is not the product that matters but the process.

this song reminds me of YA days :) I miss fast music and drum beats during worship once in a while.

1 Samuel 21:1-6

Mercy not sacrifice.

Compassion over legalism.

God is not a legalistic God. He is full of kindness and grace and mercy and compassion.

I have been caught again, thinking of Him as a fearsome God of justice. He is just, of course, but has there ever been a judge who picks up the hammer and says: You deserve the death penalty, and here I will take it for you, because I love you so much.

Well, I'm so glad for today's Bible Study.

Nice and apt. I'm so glad I know God loves me alot once more. Hahaha.

Lifeline

I have this sinking feeling
Something's weighing me down
I am completely saturated
The waves are crashing closer
My feet already drowned
Doing the thing I said I hated

They've been swimming in the wrong water
Now they're pulling me down
But I am clinging to you, never letting go
'Cos I know that you'll lift me out

Have Your way here
Keep me afloat 'cos I know I'll sink without You
Take this ocean of pain that is mine
Throw me a lifeline

Wake up feeling convicted
I know something's not right
Re-acquaint my knees with the carpet
I have to get this out
'Cos it's obstructing You and I
Dry up the seas that keep us parted

--Lifeline, Brooke Fraser

It's strange when a song embodies everything you're feeling right now. I hope I'll stay afloat, still clinging. Cos I'm still wondering if You mean to pull me out, or if You really want me to stay in the waters, drowning cos perhaps who knows, it's good for me?

It's been a tough few days. I don't know how to proceed. I'm stressed to pieces and I'm not sure where I'm headed. Times like this are rough, because I'm wondering where my life is going, what I'm doing with my life.

I'm faced with my own inadequacies, my weaknesses, my pride and prejudice and I feel helpless in this web.

I know He'll change me, but I keep feeling, why not fast enough! I want to change, so badly, but all I do is drown my feet and do the thing I said I hated.

Why am I so weak? That He may be strong? Does He want me to be strong too? Or...that He will break me that I may depend only on Him.

If He be my only vision, perhaps I would not be so wrought. Perhaps I am looking at myself too much...and the imperfections hurt me. If I look to Him, perhaps beholding is becoming, and I may be like Him without this struggle. But to be like Him, is to be unaware of how I am.