9 Months Hence

My last post was on 18th August 2016.

I am posting again, on 29th May 2017. 9 months hence.

The last post was hopeless, sad.

This post...well...life has changed. Very much, very much for the better.

I am no longer in that soul-sucking job. I hated that job. But God knew I needed to be in it.

I didn't enjoy my work there. It was so...painful. Everyday was...oh I hope the week would be over...I can't wait for my leave, for my holiday, for rest.

Everyday, was...oh I feel so tired! So tired!

But now, life is better. I am now on my own, doing my own thing, and God has blessed, and I have learned to trust Him more. I have learned that He provides, exactly what I need, whenever I need it. I have learned that I need to give Him the firstfruits of my increase, it is an outward demonstration of my faith, that I am aware He will provide, let me give because He is the giver and I don't have anything apart from Him.

I am loving again...although this time there is no more...falling into love...it's more a growing into love. There is no butterflies in the stomach, but there is a deep appreciation, growth in this love.

There is no fear, more a trust.

Maybe it is better.