(2) Captivated

A blog like this is a little difficult to stay true to! Sometimes a song pops in for no reason, and it doesn't have to do with the situation...maybe...and I try to wonder and wonder if it did, and then perhaps it isn't do truthful anymore! Or worse still, I try to think what song suits the situation best, rather than what used to happen...hehe...maybe I should move on to bible verses as well! I don't really know that many songs, but Bible verses are all in one BOOK, and as I constantly learn and read the Bible, I won't run out too soon! Haha! And Bible verses sometimes really help me get over a situation. :)

Well, this is another beautiful song I have been listening to. I will just speculate about it, because I don't know how it relates to my current situation!

Well, before I start I might as well tell you my current situation! Haha, I am a little miserable today, because I was outbid for my SS module...you know why? Cos I overslept! Sigh...I really feel like kicking myself. Totally irresponsible of me! Anyway, I am glad I bid for the earlier module then...so I still have four! And all for 1 point lol. :) So I thank God for foresight! And I suppose it is all His will...my gem module is really very very interesting, and may give me a new perspective on my designs!

Today it rained very heavily! I guess it signifies the ending of the hot and humid season in Singapore to the cold and humid season. Haha! Anyway, I was thinking what an unlucky day it was today, because the lift got jammed at grandma's and grandpa had to walk up and down the stairs for nothing, and then it rained so heavily and I did a lot of walking around the shops at Jurong East hoping the rain would thin out, but it didn't, and I got drenched even with an umbrella (I had two, I accidentally stole one from grandma O.o) getting to the Jurong East mrt station. And then I came back, decided to take a nap, and then I woke up to discover I had been out bidded!!! Waaah!!!

Well, I am accepting this as God's will! I guess if I had brought grandpa out it would have been horrible because it rained really bad, and grandpa has arthritis...and if I got the module...well perhaps it is not an easy module to score! Or there are better SS modules out there for me. :)

Anyway, the song I have in my mind is Captivated by Vicky Beeching...

Captivated (Vicky Beeching)

And Youtube!

My favourite lines are in verse 2:

Beholding is becoming so as You fill my gaze
I become more like You and my heart is changed
Beholding is becoming so as You fill my view
transform me into the likeness of You
this is what I ask for all my days
that I may never look away
never look away

Well, I don't think it seems relevant to my current situation...I can't really see it, besides, this song was a favorite a little time back, and I can't remember why I suddenly liked it so much, other than listening to a clip of it on Andrea's blog, and thinking how nice it was!

But the lyrics mean something, as they always do...and this verse really struck a chord in me because it tells me to keep my eyes on Jesus, which I don't really do. So often I look at everything else, and forget God is who I should be looking at. How do I look at God, anyway? It is so easy to say things like this...

And so easy to blog about it! But thinking deeper, I think what I should be doing, is to be asking God for guidance always, and reading the Bible and making sure I do things that please God rather than myself (Oh no! I didn't do that today! I just did things, without thinking if it would be something that pleased God or not)...So, anyway, the song is saying that if I constantly look at God, I will become more and more like Him...and it says, God, help me to look at You always, because I know it is difficult for me to look to You always if left to myself!

Hmm, I find I have a lot to write! Writing about this has brought up a lot of new thoughts. I remember a story by George MacDonald, a Scottish writer...it is called The Lost Princess (also The Wise Woman: A Parable). His books are really chim, honestly. It is multi-layered, and you can read and read it again and again and constantly learn things from it. Well, one part of the story which really struck me was the part when the princess was undergoing the tests...in the end she asked the wise woman nicely for help in the test! Because at the time she finally realized that she could not do it on her own...I can't really explain it...it strikes me...you have to read the book to understand. Unfortunately George MacDonald books are hard to find nowadays.

I've written a surprising lot for someone who confesses she can't blog! Well, I guess I still can't, because this blog is kind of boring. Anyway, I'm glad I got to write everything down! And may I constantly behold the Lord, and thus become more like Him!