Bitching

Okay, there is this thing called 'bitching'.

Girls like to do it. Guys do it too, only they are more discreet about it.

Guys can bitch, really.

Girls have more talons, though. And are cattier.

I've done it. I don't normally bitch, but yup, I've started.

This is bad.

Well, if I understand right, bitching is what you do when you are 'bu shuang' about something or someone, and then you tell someone about it and you bitch.

I've fallen headlong into this world.

Cos you see I have been very 'bu shuang' about something lately. And when a friend mentioned how she felt about the situation, all the resentment I had been keeping inside bubbled over and I started bitching about it.

I am still seriously piqued by what has been happening. But I will stop bitching.

Argh. It was so comforting to let all the resentment out. So relieving to find that other people felt the same way you were. Argh argh argh.

It's bad talking behind people's back. And I hate it. And I have been doing it. What a hypocrite I am. I want to tell the person(s) to the face that the person(s) has been wrong, but then I don't want to because if I do confront the person, things will become very, very terrible. I can see it now. O.o Cold war.

I want to start over, forget, start anew. Pretend I'm meeting you (all) again. Hello, hi, what's your name.

I will stop bitching. And I will treat you (all) like everything never happened. Okay.

Well, I wonder if it's better to let resentment build up inside, or let it go. I guess I could let it go by hitting something very, very hard, and it better not be someone's face. Haha.

Are you all readers shocked? I am not a very nice person, really. I want to be, but I'm not T.T

Pray very hard for me, can? :D

Today was submission for P1. I think Patrick Starfish is really cute hahaha. I have the cutest tutor.