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i've suddenly been inspired to write another long, random post with no beginning and no end and no ideas and no nothing. an empty post, literally, but as freud might argue (i quote freud alot, he may be a fraud (eh cute right, freud the fraud), but he strangely lends some credibility to other fraudsters like myself, heh) loads of thickly veiled truths about my mind could possibly be probed out by (possibly) interested individuals (i am kidding myself, right) who would of course carefully read through every sentence and come to the conclusion that i am not a human being, i am a duck. (quack!)

i have concluded that i am an introvert. i was reading this article about introverts (it's somewhere in the world wide web, but i'm too introverted to share you the link) (oh btw, did you know there was this guy who was horrified when he realized that the world wide web was readily available to everyone not just himself? i kid you not, he must have been an introvert) (that was on the world wide web too, but after all, i am introverted, i tell you). i realized i was an introvert when i read a line that said something like this: introverts are extremely irritated by extroverts who always say things and never think before saying them. that's cos introverts like to think through everything they say and finally end up saying the right thing at the wrong time, which is why most introverts are not popular. but i digress (or maybe i didn't, come to think of it).

another thing about introverts is that for every hour of socializing, they need two hours to recover. i was thinking how true that was of me because there are times when people talk to me and then i have this strangest reluctance in my throat to reply anything back. it could possibly be because i'm too lazy to think of a reply, but it could also be because i'm an introvert. and then i continued reading and then the article said that the reason why introverts are like that is because introverts tend to gain strength from within. extroverts gain strength from without, and that is why they talk so much. they need people to respond to them (people like introverts, who will not talk alot and thus the extrovert has no competitors) and then they absorb other people's strength like bloodsuckers (ie mosquitoes and leeches) (but nay, i am an introvert, i am of highly refined intellect (this is true. a very small percentage of the population are introverts, and this is where most of the geniuses come from. said so in the article) thus i will not compare extroverts with mosquitoes and leeches. nay. nae. nada).

of course the genius part may escape some introverts, thus you have people like me.

of course, then i began to have doubts about the gaining strength from within part, and the recovering part, because i do realize that when i am with a group of friends i have the ability to be a bloodsucker too. oops. which was when i began to doubt the whole article (the genius part kind of tipped the balance) and if you read the whole thing above this thing has no conclusion nehnehnehpoopoo

then since we're on the subject (are we?) i realized that i could possibly go bi-polar. i may not be totally introvert, but it seems that most people who become bi-polar are introverts. perhaps i am not smart enough. the really smart introverts often become bi-polar because errr one day they had to talk to too many extroverts and didn't have time to recover, so some alarm clock went off in their heads and they went bi-polar. it's like 2012, something went wrong with the sun (source of energy duh) and the poles flipped and the climate all went gaga.

ooh, since we're on the subject, i have this GREAT ADMIRATION FOR LADY GAGA. sure, she's mad, but who isn't? but she is darn brave to do the stuff she does. possibly she's bi-polar. nolah, she's a performer, most performers are extroverts, but some introverts are performers too, but they are the mad and brooding ones and the real geniuses. so lady gaga is mad. she's so mad and freaky she's actually admirable. i am a great believer of circles. as in, things travel in a circle and not a straight line. i need to apply this somewhere. like cycles. if you go far enough it'll flip over to the other side. lady gaga's style is so ugly it's beautiful in a freaky way. kitsch is in (i know of people who love kitsch. kitsch is the sort of style that is so ugly it's beautiful in a freaky way) and so is andy warhol, gogo to madness.

i was reading this book by grace livingstone hill. oh i watched UP the other day, i like it very muchie, the front part was very nearly like the short animation by kato kunio which i LOVED. but i digress (i really am this time). i was reading this book by grace livingstone hill. she reminds me of lucy maud montgomery books, except it's littered liberally with old hymns and poems. her characters are very prim and proper and old fashioned, but somehow there is a very nice feel to the books. something Godly maybe?

sis baked a cake for herself and the brother recently (it was their birthdays) (they share birthdays. it's on the same day). she started off with a genoise cake that involved strange things like beating the batter with the flame on (or something) and it failed, so she baked a sponge instead (she's really good at sponges, they always look perfect) and slathered it with dom perignon (which made it taste plain weird) and 0.75litres of freshly whipped cream. it was awesome despite the benedictine dom. and i claimed the remaining 0.25litres of whipped cream and they are slowly being fed to my thighs. (make is quickly lah, don't beat around the bush)

i share a joke with you. once upon a time the President Bush met Moses. But then you already know the story lah. noneed to tell you.

you know hor, i can eat dollops of whipped cream and not get tired of it. love the stuff. forgave the benedictine dom.

i tried drinking once. amaretto is good. didn't get much though. dad used to have a bottle of scottish whisky in his room that was very fruity and full bodied and warmed you after a sip but i didn't get much of that either. nevermind. i don't really like drinking but i hate it when people go about and look askance at people who drink. well, everything in moderation, i say, even drink, but then i don't think one should smoke at all, or take drugs.

i suppose we are all judgmental.

it's another of those introvert characteristics. we may agree with someone but like to take the opposite stand just for the sake of an argument. well, sometimes. most of the time we shun arguments because it requires another person. but then i'm not even sure if i'm an introvert. there are times when i enjoy socializing with large groups of people. and i don't drink leh. not that introverts drink...it was bad grammar on my part. or bad sentence structure.

i think i wanted to write this because i missed writing. i love writing very much. i love reading too. i wish i had all the time in the world to read and write. ohh, my name is in a book! i read uncle steve's draft many years ago, and he just published his book and my name is on the 3rd page as one of those people who read the draft and gave suggestions. i have no idea if my suggestions were good but it qure was nice of him to put my name there. the next thing for me to do is to write my own book and then it will have my name there is huge letters and i will feel happy and accomplished. after than i will have to direct a movie (not necessarily of the book) because it is part of my bucket list. i have an extensive bucket list.

i feel much better now that i have written such a lot. i still feel like writing but i think i should stop now. i have to take another dollop of cream because my thighs are hungry. perhaps the extra fat would prevent me from getting bi-polar. d'you know the brain is 2/3's fat? of course you did, i need to stop stating the obvious, but then i'm an introvert, so i'm not very connected to the outside world.

my dog is lying at my feet as a type. he's not supposed to be in the house, but then he looks at me with puppy eyes and i pat his head rather than shoo him out. we are having an ant infestation in the house. i suspect the vacuum cleaner is 89% ants.

:) merry christmas!!