Steps

The only 'love stories' I care to read has been the Anne series by LM Montgomery.

For some reason, those love stories i can take. Other love stories bore me...

I have had crushes before. My 'first crush' was a little boy in Primary one and one day I had to sit with him in class and I was so shy I looked the other way the whole time and got a neck crick. My 'second crush' was in secondary school when I joined the school Wushu team and the team leader was awful buff and handsome so I think I had a crush on him. No idea where he is now.

My 'third crush' was some guy at church. This was the first serious one I think. I mean, it was pre-u and people start becoming more serious at that time. Kinda. More. But God didn't let anything happen...and I went to Singapore.

I had about two 'more serious' crushes in uni. A couple of guys asked me out and some asked me to be their girlfriend. Most of the time I wasn't interested. It was like the guys I was interested in wasn't interested in me, and the guys I wasn't interested in were.

Then uni ended, and there were two guys after that. One wasn't a Christian, the other was too fast. I mean like, I wasn't ready when he asked, so I panicked. He wasn't a bad guy, just didn't handle it properly.

But I'm glad I didn't say yes. Cos then now there's this special someone. Who was 'too slow' for a while, but then I am so very glad for the slowness! Because if he requested courtship now I would still be unable to answer, but he had the wisdom to define our relationship instead, and laid out simple guidelines to our move toward something more serious, should it be within God's will.

I am very glad for the waiting. And even if he and I decide to desist, and we do not get together, i am glad for the knowledge of this very godly way of handling boy-girl friendships and feelings and love. There is no way I will ever regret this getting to know him better, and we have done nothing toward each other that could hurt our mates in the future, should it not be each other.

I thank God that He has allowed this part of my life to be handled in such a manner, filled with prayer and the seeking of His will. It has changed me somewhat, and taught me some virtues that I couldn't have learned otherwise. And I think God has been training him too, to take the lead in this friendship.

I do know he goes by the book though! Haha. He had key words all memorized. But that's okay. I appreciate his effort. He has been the only guy I've met thus far who has sort of fulfilled some mental checklist of what I admire in human beings in general, and he keeps doing things/saying things that reinforce that he is quite exactly in fulfillment of that checklist, though he isn't a cellist at all. I never knew I had that checklist before...haha. The most important thing was actually for human beings who did the right thing even if it hurt them, and this guy is just that. He's also very humble, sweet, kind, disciplined, responsible, and he admires things that I admire too. And he's also handsome and smart. haha.

well, will see where God leads us.