went out with daddy and sis today, to the singapore science centre.
dad was so sien we watched two imax movies at the omnitheater one after another and then spent the rest of the afternoon running around the science gallery. it's actually quite an interesting place. but i somehow feel randy won't be very happy with it. xp he probably wants me to spend my holidays visiting art galleries and museums and artsy things. whatever lah. hahaha. i will make it up. maybe dad wants to visit the museums also.
the first movie was called sea monsters, but i didn't like it that much. boring. i was merely impressed at the way the archeologists worked and how they could tell a story from a set of bones. fascinating.
the second movie was good. it was about climbing the eiger at the alps. man, one of those things i want to do (but will probably never do) is climb one of these gigantic snow covered monoliths. or climb a mountain, whatever.
the discipline required awes me.
will you believe it i can't run from deplazes even when out.
an autonomous alpine shelter, the monte rosa hut, switzerland.
designed by andrea deplazes and marcel baumgartner.
there was an alpine exhibition just outside the omnitheatre, and i was walking around when this gorgeous floor plan caught my eye. i was admiring the details when suddenly it dawned on me that the guy in the pic just next to the floorplan was the author of my latest 500 page textbook.
Back to my usual style of naming my blogposts after a song I'm listening to. At the moment it's Could It Be Any Harder by The Calling. I'm into alternative rock, but I can't deny I love classical as well. I realize perhaps my public personality is quite different from who I really am. My blog doesn't completely reflect who I am. It's a more superficial version of me. A reflection of my hates and wants and delights 'at the time'. Maybe if you read every post you may get a glimpse of me...but I think it's highly unlikely. Never mind, I guess I like it this way. :)
The weather is lovely now, after the horrible heat of the past few days. In fact, right now I must say I love the weather. It's nearly the way I like it. Only it's day. I love it when it rains at night. The imagination can run wild, and somewhere else is nearer then. Daytime holds less mystery.
Suddenly overwhelmed again by wanderlust. Many things are keeping me from it, responsibilities, family obligations. One day I will travel.
AT THE MOMENT I WANT TO GO HOME!!!! @@
Sometimes I say I want to do things. I want to get out of my comfort zone, do things I would never dream of doing. Take risks. etc etc. But I don't. I am a coward. I don't dare to do it, I only speak of it. How can I do this? All words and no action. Big bag of words I am.
I need to do things I'm afraid of doing. Arrgh, and somehow I know I will never do them because I am so cowardly.
I am feeling SO dissatisfied. There must be more to life than sitting here mugging!!! Mug mug mug. How much goes in I have no idea.
I think I'll go for a jog and wear out my dissatisfaction.
so long as there is a white sail and wind, i can go anywhere i want to go...
i am feeling ridiculously happy now because dad is in town and i'm going out with him and sis tmr morning!
Today was submission for our cds at the office, so as usual we all somehow ended having lunch together. We went to megabytes. I got myself a vege pizza, and I was the first to order and the last to receive. Bugger. I won't order pizza there again.
Anyways. I cannot believe the conversation we had. It was completely nuts. Crazy. We were in stitches most of the time, mainly due to LM. My goodness, it is good to laugh again.
If anyone reads the nonsense in the cbox, it is mainly due to extreme boredom and has no basis on fact. Thank you very much.
As I listened to the message today, I realized that perhaps my view of baptism has been a little shallow.
I'm now baptized, but I don't feel very different :) But I guess we all don't get baptized and immediately become saints, do we?
Today: 26/4/2009
My new birthday! I've been born again. This is a mere symbol. What is important will be the changes occurring within. May my walk with God be even richer from now on, even as I announce to the world my commitment to Him.
I feel strangely more refreshed today than in the past few days....maybe because after the baptism at ecp (pics with simon!) I knocked out and slept for 3 hours. I had a lot of weird dreams of designing houses during this sleep, which is well, plain weird @@
Anyways, I have just had dinner and am going to knock off again. The weather is SO BAD.
Hmm, I've been thinking. If I don't marry at all I think I will not mind. Having someone (a guy) does not seem to me particularly important, for some reason. The only thing I will be very sad about is not having kids. I mean, I have God already, and He provides all my needs. I am perfectly happy to be single if God wants me to be, and perfectly happy to marry if God wants me to.
LOL, if you are wondering why I came up with this random topic, it's cos of the facebook quiz when will you marry (facebook quizzes have been filling up my boredom in the past week hahaha) which predicted I will be married in my early twenties (of course it also predicted I will have no soulmate, and alot of people are supposed to have passed away before they were born) and Lai Mei came up with the idea of me marrying today. Which is also the day I get baptised.
I suppose baptism is a sort of marriage. A symbol of a commitment.
2 Corinthians 5:17 Therefore if anyone is in Christ, he is a new creation; the old has gone, the new has come!
The weather is so HOT!! So dreadfully hot I cannot even sleep. I am going to take another bath. There are some guys fighting downstairs. Can they please don't shout? Guys like that are not good. I can't believe this is happening in RH.
I feel so depressed. I'm wilting. Can they just STOP shouting? I hate it when people shout. It scares me. Especially when guys shout. When a guy is angry and cannot control himself it's extremely scary. I actually thought they may start punching each other. Scary.
I have just bathed (in cold water) and have been comfortable for a whole of 1 minute. Now it's getting uncomfortable again. I'm trying not to move or I will sweat.
I love music. It is so calming. I actually cool down when I listen to music...aahhhh.
Going to be baptized tomorrow. Meant to be baptized a couple of years ago, but circumstances did not allow. I do not believe that the act of baptism by water is necessary for salvation, but rather, baptism is an act of obedience and identification with Jesus as the Christ. I believe that it is merely an outward expression (is this the right word?) of God's work and hand in my life, which is usually invisible to man but visible to God. I hope this is in line with my current church's beliefs. :) Anyway, it will be very important to me, a 'physically visible' milestone in my walk with God.
I have known for very long that Christ will always be my one and only Savior. I will not stray from this faith. So I think it should be alright for me to be baptized.
I am glad to be God's child. I see His hand in my life, and I am so glad. I am glad that my parents dedicated me to Him when I was a child, being a firstborn. I know I have a work to do here on earth, and I hope to do it with all the abilities I have, and with all the talents he has given me. I am glad to be here in Singapore right now, because I know that God meant me to be here, and I am glad for the faith he gave me to come here and not take an easier route.
Life on earth may not turn out the way I want it to, but I know it will turn out the way God wants it to, if only I trust in Him every time I face an obstacle in my life. Decision making will not be based on short term gains, but on prayer and on the everlasting life promised.
Like what is written on the campus blog:
He is no fool to give up what he cannot keep to gain what he cannot lose. - Jim Elliot
And my other favorite:
If we discover a desire within us that nothing on earth can satisfy, we should begin to wonder that perhaps we were created for another world. -CS Lewis.
There is a life after death, and the treasures there do not rot and are not stolen. Let my treasures be there and not on earth. There is where God is, and where God is is perfect.
Matthew 6. I love Matthew.
Well, I thank God for insomnia. Perhaps I have not been taking my baptism seriously enough, and now I have time to think it through. Thank You, God.
Some time ago when I was rushing for submissions, I was also rushing through my quiet time, but something about fasting struck me. I felt that fasting and prayer was going to be a new thing in my life.
I never thought much about fasting before, it was more a kind of novelty, of missing a meal. But now I realize there is more to it. Fasting and praying will play a part in my life from now on. It is a discipline. God speaks to those who listen, and I want to have my ears wide open from now on. And I think intense course of personal Bible Study will play a very big part in the coming three month holiday :)
I have just returned from helping a masters senior finish his models. Argh. Now that their submissions are over I HAVE ABSOLUTELY NOTHING TO DO AGAIN.
Unless you count the 500page book (Constructing Architecture: Materials Processes Structure second edition) sitting next to me, and my Systems exam...maybe I should go home.
My stomach is growling too. This is going to be another wu liao post.
But it won't be long like the previous one. I think I am going to sleep because my dark circles are getting bad. Last night I stayed up till 3am doing trees for the senior's model. They are very nice trees :) Well, I guess I do learn things from seniors, and I have nothing to do anyway...and if I help seniors now if I have problems in the future I can always go find them to ask things...so this is good...but why am I helping a masters senior? They won't be in school anymore.
Maybe in the future I will get plenty of nice elves to help me when I am rushing for my masters submission because I helped this senior this time around...firm believer that what goes around comes around (or whatever the quotation is (my English is sucking, I think I need to read more books...))
Okay, I am going to sleep to get rid of my dark circles, and hopefully tomorrow I won't die of boredom and you will never see me again.
Morning was fun :) Went with sis to the ICA to get her passport done and we barely waited cos we went so early! Hunger then led us to City Hall for breakfast (we let about 5 trains go to avoid becoming a sardine at Lavender) consisting of bread, kaya, butter(!) and cold milo (hot milo didn't seem appealing for once) and then to the shops, which were mostly closed at the time.
MPH was open though, and so as usual us two bookworms went in to see if anything interesting was there (I miss reading!! But I don't seem to have the time to nowadays...) but it was a fairly small bookstore so there wasn't really anything. I saw a lovely pink Bible there, and figured I may get it for someone who really likes pink :) Haha...it will be a going away present for someone special.
We then hit the shops when they started to open, but none of us are crazy about shopping, so we spent an hour looking for the cinema (both of us have no sense of direction...I have it a bit better than my sis, because she will never get to the destination, whereas I will find the longest way there, which isn't good either...) and we decided to watch Taken, some movie about a daughter who got kidnapped and how her father went out to get her back.
Had lunch at some fast food Jap restaurant. Okay. Will stop narrating. :) Taken was a seriously disturbing movie. Makes me think twice about going backpacking alone or even with one or two friends. Arrghhh, seriously disturbing, and did the dad have to kill so many people to find his daughter? The first death was disturbing, and most of those following were disturbing too. So disturbing. @@ I think I will stick to comedies and fantasy movies (even some of these are disturbing @@ I should stick to fantasy movies for kids) from now on.
After that, we went our separate ways and I got back and slept till six. Hahaha. Most certainly NOT another Tuesday. Feel quite happy, but a little lost because I'm so used to having things to do, and now I'm quite free...I'm even feeling quite lonely because I'm so used to working at studio with half my studio mates around me, and our CAD assignment was seriously fun as we did it all together in Clarence's room and all the crapping was really fun hahaa.
I always put myself into situations when I'm bored. I find something interesting to do and bring it a bit far, and then I wonder what I have put myself into...Oh no. I better find something to do quick or my life will start complicating itself! Or maybe I want it to complicate itself!! SOOO BORED NOW!!!
Yesterday night I met dad and sis at NUH for dinner! It was then I realized how much I missed family. I really do not enjoy living alone here in Singapore (friends can make up for it, but family is really irreplaceable!). Mom was so kind she sent down vitamins for me by express post that week I blew and the postage was more expensive than the package itself. LOL. touched, so touched. I miss everyone at home. Miss the camaraderie. Miss the mess, miss my crazy monkey brothers. Miss HOME. Arrghhh. Even miss the fact that dad can be so long winded sometimes. He'll repeat the same thing over again until I acknowledge that i have heard it before moving on...I get irritated, but I was so happy because it was dad.
Too bad studio was closed. Wanted to show them my studio and where I worked and all my stuff. Sigh. Showed them the workshop, and Scalebar...dad wasn't impressed lol. Oh well. Oh yeah I helped a senior do a model for the first time yesterday! Senior models are cool. Really interesting work. I want to do that when I'm in fourth year, but I have to get past RIBA first. So complexly simple...so interesting! I'm glad I'm in Archi!
Okay. Now that I've finished blogging, what should I do? (I guess you have figured out why I am writing this completely pointless post now) (but perhaps you never got here, so you wouldn't be reading this...) Maybe I'll go check if Kiina has been updated. I want to see my Yuta again!! NOOOOOoooOOOOOooooooo Kiina has not been updated!! And I watched the last episode of Boys Before Flowers by accident so I know the ending and it's so long I think I will be bored! What shall I watch?? What shall I DO???
I am going to blog!! I AM GOING TO BLOG UNTIL THIS IS SO LONG AND IT WILL FILL UP ALL THE SPACE THAT ALL MY OTHER POSTS USED TO TAKE UP). perhaps I will find out if there is a word limit for blog posts. I don't want to study. I refuse to study. I don't know what to watch, and I am too lazy to go through each drama and see if it is worth watching. And anyway I just want to see Yuta. My exam is on the 2nd of May and the 5th...if I study anything today I will forget it anyway so what's the point? Arrrgh, WHAT SHALL I DO?????
I have a feeling a lot of people will kill me just for writing this lol. Yeah, so what? I have very few exams...cos I was suffering the whole semester. Sorry if I sound so antagonistic. I am feeling very frustrated. I am very bored. I want to go and do something exciting. I want to live life!! I am restless!! Aaaaah!!!!
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Exclamation marks are extremely satisfying.
I want to fill my days up with things to do. Fill it up, fill it up...Oooh, maybe I should read something. I want to read something, but I am so out of touch with the world of storybooks that I don't even know what I want to read. Why can't my life be more moderate? Why extreme busy-ness contrasted with extreme nothing-ness?
HELPPPPPP I AM BORED. I am so bored I think I will take out my systems notes and start reading. I think I will read Frank Ching. Maybe I will finally finish The Eyes of the Skin. (And perhaps understand it).
Philippians 4:8 Finally, brothers, whatever is true, whatever is noble, whatever is right, whatever is pure, whatever is lovely, whatever is admirable...if anything is excellent or praiseworthy, think about such things.
Matthew 6:33 But seek first His kingdom and His righteousness, and all these things will be given to you as well.
Matthew 16:25-26 For whoever wants to save his life will lose it, but whoever loses his life for me will find it. What good will it be for a man if he gains the whole world, yet forfeits his soul? Or what can a man give in exchange for his soul?
Proverbs 27:17 As iron sharpens iron, so one man sharpens another.
Matthew 25:40 In as much as ye have done it unto the least of these my brethren, ye have done it unto me.
Philippians 4:6-7 Do not be anxious about anything, but in everything, by prayer and petition, with thanksgiving, present your requests to God. And the peace of God, which transcends all understanding, will guard your hearts and your minds in Christ Jesus.
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