It's Neu Year's Eve!

well, i just know 2010 is going to be a good year! just know it! it's going to be an AMAZING YEAR. there's just this tingling in my spine when i think of the year 2010...GOOD THINGS ARE GOING TO HAPPEN!

when i was younger i loved those new exercise books we got in the beginning of the year. ah, this year, THIS YEAR, my exercise books would not deteriorate into 咸菜. THIS YEAR, i would have A stars all over it. the first page would always have beautifully neat handwriting, the date would be written, the work would be impeccable...

ah well, you know the story...

BUT THIS YEAR, it's gonna be DIFFERENT!! cos i feel it in my bones, i feel it in my too-short hair: IT'S GONNA BE A YEAR OF CHANGE. Good change or bad, it's going to BE UP TO ME (and up to God, but I bet He gives me some leeway, and anyway, Him being in charge of my life, i bet if I do my best He'll do the rest.

soooo, I know I'm not very smart, I know I suck at a gazillion things, but 2010, it's going to be THE BEST OF MY 23 years. ever. cos 2010 is officially THE YEAR I DO MY BESTEST IN EVERYTHING I DO. with my heart and my soul and my strength and my sweat and my tears and so on and so forth. aye. do you feel the tingly's too?

and it's going to be a FANTASTIC YEAR, because eejia is back! (man, i really missed her leh) (i think i get through design because she pushes me, would probably die without her feedback, it somehow makes me feel better) (thank God for msn).

it's also going to be a FABULOUS YEAR, because i'm so not taking Jap anymore (yays, no more memorizing vocabulary every night, tutorials at weird hours, teachers speaking gibberish, me speaking real gibberish...etcetc

and i have only 3 mods this sem!! WOOHOOOO!!! 3 modules!!! and all archi related! so much more time to spend in studio for design...so much more time to pore over books on awesome eye candy buildings and connections and floor plans and sections and elevations and connection details and perspectives (okay, slight sarcasm here, but the very teeniest bit, very very tiny, nearly a micrometer squared) i actually like looking at these things, only the designing of them is a little difficult. but who cares? new! clean slate! i'm going to do the best i can this year! i hope i get a randy-like tutor (fat hope, for year3, but still can hope lah) and get to explore and have fun.

and now we get to the nitty gritty of resolutions. i never used to post resolutions before, because i figured i probably wouldn't do them, and anyway i was lazy to think of them, and it got forgotten anyway...but i think i will post them this time, and whether they get done or not, at least i made an effort, and the BEST EFFORT i can put in right now, even before year 2010 starts!

oh darn. not easy.

RESOLLUSSHIIESS:

1) Memorize the book of Proverbs. Just came across it during quiet time couple of days ago. (was attempting to finish Psalms in december, but currently i'm only at Psalm 68. fail.) (but you realize i managed at least 2 psalms a day? heh?)

2) Use the laser machine. (dyou know I'VE NEVER USED THE LASER MACHINE for individual design before?) (must attempt it this semester. FACE THE UGLY LASER MACHINE!!! even if i have to sit at the computer sunday night and book a slot the moment it becomes monday)

3) Use up all my old material. This might put my work at jeopardy, but I will attempt not to buy a single new material until i use up all my old material (i'm lucky i stocked up on basswood last sem. hahaha). This will save me money, and with the money i save...

4) Be better dressed. I know this sounds vain, and silly, and materialistic, and well, silly...but i've been strangely addicted to a fashion blog called the sartorialist and somehow feel like i want to have my own personal style! Well, we shall see. I'm a student on a budget, and most of the time clothes don't top my list of priorities (except when i'm depressed, then blowing my budget on nice clothes suits my mood...but i realize that even though i blew my budget twice last semester on two items of clothing that were a little on the expensive side+2 expensive haircuts, I spent less because I barely ate much supper! lol. Is a good thing, healthier.)

5) Budget. I need a proper idea of how much I spend a month and how I can cut costs on the things I really don't need. I realize if I plan my trips (because I spend ALOT of money on transport) I can really cut down my expenditure. Also, the occasional blowing of budget on unnecessary food items that will eventually be left to rot are nono as well. Suppers, even though they cost around the vicinity of a mere 2-3 dollars a day, will equal to at least 50 dollars a month, and there you go. (that is 125 ringgit leh).

6) Save. Mom said that I should right now begin to set aside money for the future. I won't be supported anymore once I graduate, and if I begin saving now, that might help me out for the first few difficult months looking for a job and having to rent a place outside.

7) Time management+procrastination. I usually manage my time pretty well in the beginning, but after a while I start throwing everything all around, get depressed, burned out, mess up my schedule, and be a wreck at the end of the semester. So, I'm going to have to balance my play and my work, and make sure I don't burn myself out before I should. Also, I have a habit of procrastination. I realize I have perfectionistic tendencies (two people identified that in me, after I broke my model up for the fifth time in one night and refused to use the wrong color acrylic) (perfectionism is a bad thing when you refuse to start because you're afraid it won't finish well, and when you spend too much time on the details). The best way to fulfill this resolution is to plan ahead, plan for the semester, plan for the year, plan for the next 2.5 years until I graduate, plan for the next 5 years. 5 year plan. yes. good idea.

8) Facebook less. Haha. This warrants an entire resolution in itself.

9) Spend more time in the library. If I'm at the library I am forced to work, rather than facebook/sleep. So instead of heading back to hall immediately after classes (unless it's dinner time) head for the library instead (or head for studio). read more in the library rather than borrow. makes me actually read, rather than collect books that i flip through just before i have to return them.

well that's it for now. It's quite a basic list of resolutions, but i feel that these are quite do-able. There is a lot more I have suddenly thought of, but is okay, I begin like this first. :) And of course, God will be my guide throughout this new year, as He has been in the past and will be in the future.

It just occurred to me that in P1 last year, when i was rendering the panels in the dds (some of you will know how long that took) someone pulled the plug on my com by accident and the screen blanked out. i realized then that i had not yet saved the work. and it wasn't sketchup or autocad, which has autosave function, it was photoshop, which i think doesn't save work (it really doesn't autosave). shocked, i switched on the computer again praying furiously, rather numbed. and will you believe it, when i turned on the com, my file was still open on photoshop and everything was still there. and the com was really shut down. I still think it was a miracle. what do you think?